Update

Not written a few days but thought i would do a quick update of what's been happening lately.

I have had amazing feedback about the blog. I am so happy that people have found it helpful to them, they now see they are not alone. I have received emails from some really great people who i am now keeping in touch with. I like to try an support people as much as i can. I don't claim to be an expert on all this but i do think i have a postitive attitude which is important. Too many people out there can try to drag you down and that't not gonna help you.

I wrote a post a few days ago about my NLP experience and the therapist who claimed he could cure me in one session. I was really angry with what happened back then but i let it go. Now though i have got talking to someone else who has just met with the same guy. She too has been ripped off and left feeling worse after he got her hopes up. After doing a bit if research i have found more people still and have decided that something has to be done. I have written to the Daily Record which is one of our biggest newspapers in Scotland. I hope to hear back from them but if i don't i will try The Sunday Post which is where i first found out about him. I really think he needs to be exposed for what he is. I honestly don't know how he sleeps at night. Oh yeh i am sure there are people out there that he has helped, but what about the others he has let down and basically treated really unprofessionally? When i know how this is going i will name him on here.

So i've been a bit busy with different things, ive been out walking but i do need to do it more. But its cold and miserable and i'd much rather be warm and cosy haha... maybe im making excuses.

Sometimes we just have other things going on and we can't put our full attention on getting out and pushing ourselves. Today my nephew Luke is in hospital having a big operation so thats my priority right now, even if all i am doing is sitting nervously waiting for the phone to ring to hear he's ok. It's a bit tense at home, we are all worried although he will be fine.

Finally today is my mum's birthday so we are gonna have a nice dinner tonight and then i'll be seeing my boyfriend so doesn't look like i'll be going out but all in all i am feeling good. Still positive. Still planning on fighting this and kicking it's ass. Thanks again for all your emails and i would encourage everyone to get in touch if you haven't already. Keep smiling x

'I Will Cure You'

My dad came across an article in a newspaper about a man who was curing phobias. I had a look and i admit the stories were very impressive. Each person had a different phobia and after only one or two sessions with the man in the article they had been totally cured.

We decided that i would get in touch with him. Thankfully he was based nearby so i called him up and arranged an appointment. So the day arrived and so did James (i'll change his name for this). He arrived in his top sports car and expensive outfit and you could tell he meant business.

We sat and talked about my issues and he informed me that he has worked with agoraphobics before. He insitsted that he has cured everyone he had ever worked with by using something called neuro-linguistic programming, otherwise known as NLP. He told me stories of people who had been scared of heights, he soon had them jumping out of helecopters. Then he told me about the agoraphobics who he had calling him from the other side of the world thanking him profusly. So i was excited. I believed in him. The cost for his services was more than i had but we figured it would be worth it as he assured me that after a couple of sessions i would be back to my old self.

Session one, we done some NLP together. This was mostly him talking to me, making me imagine things, change the images in my head. He explained how my mind worked and he helped me realise things which had gone unnoticed before. I was impressed. Session one passed and i was still the same. I didn't see any changes what so ever but i figured it was early days.

Session two we went out in his car. We drove within my comfort zone and although i had a few anxious moments it basically went ok. He also taught me another technique called TFT. This was basically tapping on different pressure points in the body. He also bought me the book about it 'Tapping The Healer Within' and i started to study that. So in the car i done some tapping, and like i said, it went ok. But that was session 2 over and i still wasn't cured.

By this time i had developed a new problem. I was still getting out and about within my comfort zone but i had started relying on doing it all by bike. In my head i felt it was better by bike because if i panicked i would be able to get home much quicker. That was fine at first but soon i was relying on the bike so much that couldn't go to the shops without it.

The next few sessions i had booked were cancelled as James couldn't make it. It was over a month before i seen him again. Then when i did see him we had another session driving around in circles. Session over... still not cured.

Again the next few sessions were cancelled. I was losing faith in James by now.

When James came back i told him i felt i needed to try walking to the shops again without my bike. So we set off. I talked the whole way there so that my mind was kept busy. I went into the shop, bought a magazine and walked home.

The next time i spoke to James was via email. I asked when our next appointment would be and he basically said that he would now support me by text or email. I was confused...how would that help me? He said that when i walked to the shops i proved that i could do it. That he had basically done his job. I was so angry. I wrote back and asked how he could say that he had done his job. We walked to the shops once but everything was in my comfort zone. We had NEVER tried going any further. I told him if he tried to make me go to the next town i would never be able to manage it, i would be terrified. So... i wasnt cured and i never heard from James again. A waste of a lot of money and another let down to leave me feeling frustrated, hopeless and alone.